Still Too Scared To Talk

You know it is funny, I say I want to meet people and practice socializing.  Yet when I see a oppurtunity I still run and hide like the wuss that I am.  I think it was because they were girls... and it was in the hot tub again.  I think I saw them.  They were pretty cute... probably in high school.  I don't know, as I have been told I need to get out and practice.

It is kind of funny, I do not really know why I just avoid people.  I see plenty of chances to talk to people... and I don't... I feel pretty weak.  I guess I just need to work on my confidence.  Why do I feel like I have to practice?  I need to work on the confidence first I guess... I guess I can practice smiling.  I don't know, seems like a challenge.